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I have spent the last 3 months listening to other people.Really thinking about other peoples lives....some how I forgot about my own life. I forgot about how I got here,and how I need to always remember. I have thought about things that I wished would go away,I have asked for things I wished would come back,I have spent time hurting myself, and maybe others because I was to selfish to leave the past in the past! We get caught up in things because we don't know any better ,or maybe that's our own excuse! I looked around tonight, and realized no one made me, no one helped create me,there is not a person in this world who can say they have got me here because,inspite,or with me besides my husband. We all have friends,we all have people who have changed,inspired us,but at the end of each day we are alone,or so we may think??? If you can find yourself with someone who is willing to love you through good,bad,bullshit that only high school has to offer,all the crazy in your eye that only your own true love can really see,and when I say really see I am saying when you are so fucking crazy because you lost all you've ever known, and you know yourself that only you ever really knew how to love you before him,but he pretends for your sake that she never made you a pawn for what she missed.You are lucky to have him! So for anyone who ever strains their neck for the past remember your future because if we live in the past we live with only heartbreak,expectations that will never live up to what we remember, and an ache that we can not console. Grasp what you have now,and love like there is no tomorrow because there is never a guaranty....tomorrow is never promised!!!! He is all I have ever known,he is my greatest love,if not for him I would not be who I am today. Before you,before me........God has always known!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   
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